In August Brandon
and I celebrated three years of marriage (woohoo!). Although we are still
fairly novice in the realm of marital bliss, there has certainly been a range
of opportunities for us to learn and develop as a married couple. From trips
across the world to trips around the block, from moving apartments to moving
the dishes from the table to the sink, from broke students to still-broke
pastors we have certainly had various chances to gain bits of wisdom regarding
marriage.
But in all of the
experiences, one certainly stands out... the coffee grinder argument.
Shortly after the
cake was cut, the bouquet had been tossed and the speeches were said, we headed
off to Mexico to enjoy a blissful week away before our next school year began.
Upon our return we were met with a huge pile of gifts and cards wishing us well
and setting us up with everything we needed to make our apartment a home. We
moved in later that week and began to settle in, putting everything away and
figuring out what this new normal would look like.
With those gifts
we received a lot of gift cards. At first it was really easy to spend these. We went to the store, wandered around
adding this and that to our cart but after awhile we realized that we actually
had everything we might need. It was then that we came up with a
brilliant idea. We would spend the money left on our gift cards on other gift
cards we could use for a night out, like to the movies or restaurants. We ended
up having date nights paid in advance that lasted throughout our whole first
year!
It wasn’t until
later that month that we realized we had one gift card left.
One night when we
were at the mall, we wandered into Sears with my sights on spending the gift
card on some sort of home décor for the changing season. Unfortunately at that
same moment, we wandered past the small appliances.
“Do we have a
coffee grinder?” Brandon asked as we passed through an aisle of pots and
kettles.
“Um, no.”
That was my quick
response while in my non-coffee drinker mind I thought how useless it would be
for us to spend our hard-received money on that
when we could be purchasing a cute snowman figurine.
Well, if I was on
one end of the spectrum thinking of how unnecessary the grinder was, Brandon
was certainly on the other. We could grind our own coffee! We could enjoy it
fresh! Who wants Folgers anyway? We want the real deal, the whole bean! We want
the smell of fresh ground beans to wake us up in the morning!
By we, his mind
must have meant he.
As quiet, in
public arguments go, we went back and forth using strong expressions and whispered
frustration. Employees wandered by, silently willing us to leave the store as
the clock neared closing time.
And in the end,
we came to the agreement that he may as well buy the coffee grinder.
Although, I wasn’t
exactly happy. Yes, most of the items we had gotten for the wedding were geared
toward me. Yes, I got excited over a crock pot and his enthusiasm wasn’t quite
there. Yes, he does drink coffee so there is some slight chance he might use
it.
But still, I wasn’t
too happy.
Well, the weeks,
months, and years went by and that poor little coffee grinder’s usage can be
counted on one hand. It has become a bit of a running joke in our home,
especially when Brandon opts to use the grinder in the grocery store aisle.
I could certainly
sit here and say those four menacing, relationship threatening, unhelpful
little words that point out my superiority in the argument after all... but I
won’t.
Because in
reality, that coffee grinder taught me something important about marriage, even
if it has taken me three years to figure it out. This little coffee grinder
serves as a reminder that in marriage there is no room for selfishness.
In our
self-serving, me first society, it has become second-nature to think of
ourselves first. We have come to a point where we don’t even realize we do it.
And yet, we act selfishly all the time. We feel that we deserve to be treated a certain way, given certain things, and have
our opinions regarded as correct. We seek validation in how many ‘likes’ we
receive on social media and for many of us, generosity has become a game of how
little it can cost us. Now, this is certainly not everyone but I am sure that
you might be able to see some self-serving behaviour in your own life if you
took the time to reflect.
And for me, that
coffee grinder was certainly not self-serving, and so, I did not want to spend
our money on it. Forget that Brandon wanted it, forget that I already had so
much, forget that it would make him happy. What about me?
The more we begin
to take our eyes off of ourselves and begin to look to another, the more
fulfilled we can become. If I can look toward Brandon and serve him to my full
capacity, and if he can look toward me and love me in every way, we will both
be taken care of in a greater way than if we simply tried to serve our own
needs.
This give and
take creates a balanced, beautiful picture of what a relationship was created
to be.
So, the next time
you begin to boil about a coffee grinder in a department store, a sport that he
really wants to play this weekend, an unexpected expense or a change of plans,
I encourage you to stop before you react. Are your feelings selfish? Are they
only serving your needs and desires? What about the other person, where are
they in this? What is the ‘why’ behind the conversation?
And I assure you,
if you can let go of the little selfish actions, you will find yourself in a
much better place, perhaps even with a coffee grinder in your cupboard.
May all your wishes come true and have lots of fun.
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